After canceling the remaining 14 dates on his Purpose world tour earlier this summer, Justin Bieber hopped on Instagram Wednesday evening to explain why.
In a long text post (that appears to have been written in Apple’s Notes app and then photographed with a phone), the pop star reveals that he’s doing a lot of work on himself at the moment. He opens by expressing his gratitude for his fans’ continued support, and then explains that his missteps over the past few years aren’t lost on him, and that he’s hoping to grow from the experiences.
“I let bitterness, jealousy and fear run my life.!!!! [sic]” he wrote. “I am extremely blessed to have people in the past few years help me build my character back up reminding me of who I am and who I want to be!!!. Reminding me my past decisions and past relationships don’t dictate my future decisions and relationships. Im VERY aware I’m never gonna be perfect, and I’m gonna keep making mistakes but what I’m not gonna do is let my past dictate my future.. What I’m not gonna do is be ashamed of my mistakes. I wanna be a man that learns from them and grows from them.!!”
He went on to explain that he’s taking time off so he can recharge his batteries as Justin Bieber the civilian, not just Justin Bieber the pop star.
“Me taking this time right now is me saying I want to be SUSTAINABLE..” he said. “I want my career to be sustainable, but I also want my mind heart and soul to be sustainable, be the man I want to be, the husband I eventually want to be and the father I want to be. This message is just an opportunity for you to know my heart, I’m not expecting anyone to understand, but I do want people to have na opportunity to know where I am coming from!”
He ended the post with a meditation on flaws: “THIS MESSAGE IS IS VERY GRAMMATICALLY INCORRECT BUT ITS FROM THE HEART. BUT I THINK THERES SOMETHING SPECIAL ABOUT IMPERFECTIONS!!”
